Monday, December 29, 2008

Another Magic Evening...

I'm still all about the Magic tonight, got some pics, but as I have to do it one handed, with no flash, and he doesn't exactly POSE, well, you can get an idea....



It's hard, in this light to get a picture of how beautiful he is. When I went in tonight, I'd brought food, but forgotten the Feather Stick. I went back for it and came in, and he was already out and ready for the game! It was Boss, actually, with the Jungle Loves, you know, who first got them to come out, when he was visiting one day, and started playing with the stick. I remembered that last night.



His eyes, an the FEEL of him are so very different now. He feels wonder, and curiosity, not hate and fear.



That's his "Cave" sometimes he is under it, and sometimes under the blanket on it. I am feeling a lot of wonder myself. I can't quite explain this feeling, but for something so damaged, and so hurt, to be able to trust me enough to come out, and be happy...There's nothing like it. There aren't words.



It's a lesson of sorts. When Janet first heard of him, she was WAY honest with me about his chances, and the state he was in. I didn't know if I could help him, but I did know I was going to try, and there wasn't anyone else. After he came, and over the next few months, I still didn't honestly know if I could reach him. But I wasn't going to stop trying. Ever.



It doesn't matter if you think you can do something, it doesn't matter if you believe if you can do it or not.

It just matters if you DO it.

Love, and Wonder,
Lorraine

94 Comments:

At 7:00 PM , Blogger Siri said...

I am proud of you.

I'm going to try to figure out what it is I need to do, so I can do it.....the list is long.....

 
At 7:02 PM , Blogger Siri said...

And what a beautiful boy he is, indeed.

Oh, the news people here said the storm you are getting tomorrow is our Christmas and New Years gift to Minnesota. Sorry....

 
At 7:06 PM , Blogger Beez said...

*hugs*

Maybe this is just odd of me, but the feeling that I get from him in the picture that the room is suddenly his, the environment isn't strange and fearful any more, but home.

Congratulations 'Lo. You done good.

 
At 7:06 PM , Blogger Beez said...

Oh- and thanks Siri.

We'll have to return the favor sometime. :P

 
At 7:11 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Yeah, thanks Siri, there goes my new hair for New Years...

It IS more his room now. I've been working on it, slowly, so as not to freak him out. The futon comes soon, so I will be able to sleep there sometimes, and maybe he will want to lie on it.

There's a Sandman hanging thing up now, and El has offered me a Underworld 3 poster she managed to lay her hands on (TRUE friend that!) and I am clearing the shelves, so he can more easily scale them.

 
At 7:14 PM , Blogger Adri said...

Oh he's beautiful! And I know that intent, bengal at play look he has in the second photo!

 
At 7:16 PM , Blogger Beez said...

Clearing the shelves...selling the antiques....

*falls over laughing*

"Half measure availed us nothing- we stood at the turning point..."

 
At 7:18 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

They are intense, aren't they?

Beez, snort, got it in one....

 
At 7:19 PM , Blogger Siri said...

Believe you me, you send us enough of your weather in the wintertime..

I think your hair will still be gorgous, Ms Fabulous....you can always tie some feathers in your hair...

(I'm just envious about not being at the show.)

 
At 7:21 PM , Blogger Siri said...

Went back and read this again -
"I can't quite explain this feeling, but for something so damaged, and so hurt, to be able to trust me enough to come out, and be happy...There's nothing like it. There aren't words."

There is one word - love. It says it all.

 
At 7:23 PM , Blogger AletaMay said...

Very cool. Just do. Good words.

 
At 7:31 PM , Blogger gaypet said...

You managed to capture the size of his eyes (and the nocturnal wild leopard thing) in that second shot. I think sleeping in his room is a great idea. A little disconcerting perhaps. But a great idea non-the-less!

 
At 7:34 PM , Blogger ariandalen said...

We all knew you could do it, Ms. Fabulous. Everything happens in its own time. ::soft smile::

 
At 7:37 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

You all knew, I didn't.

More than a little disconcerting, sleeping with him, I'm nervous about Lear the Huge, and I at least kind of know him. A little anyway, and he is an F2.

Love. Yes. That would be it. I do love him.

 
At 7:39 PM , Blogger Siri said...

Well, you'd probably wake up before he ate you totally, so it will be fine. Just fine... Really.....

We have the utmost faith in your abiblity to do anything.

Except maybe cook shrimp.....

 
At 7:43 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Just fine...Really...No worries here...

And no cooking shrimp!!!!!!

It was tuna night here tho, every so often I split a can between the 5 of them. True Love!!!!!!!!

 
At 7:52 PM , Blogger bulfinch's aglaia said...

Happy Days and Nights of Magic!! I am so deeply moved by this. You are indeed Fabulous Lorraine, and an inspiration and a joy. And Magic is amazingly beautiful, even in the lowlight pictures. Just wow...

 
At 7:53 PM , Blogger Siri said...

Off to bed in hopes of better sleep than last night - I think I was still excited about Magic breakthroughs.

More work tomorrow - then one day then a lovely day off - my favorite do-nothing day of the year.

Night, Fiendom.

 
At 7:55 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

'Night Siri!

I feel kind of Just Wow myself, Grace...

 
At 7:57 PM , Blogger bengalgirl said...

You won't even know he is sleeping with you for a long time as as soon as you stir he will be gone in a flash. But sometime you will be able to gently touch him.

My goodness that sounds like soft porn doesn't it?

Janet

 
At 8:07 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Hee-hee, I will softly touch him.

Starting to try with King Lear the Huge, he doesn't like it and I don't push it....He will eat from my hand, and the Little Queen Mab seems to like being pet.

I think she might be hopping on the bed at night, but she does leap if I move...

 
At 8:14 PM , Blogger Dragonsally said...

I think the photos actually show his beauty and where he is at even more than they would if they were really crisp. Soft focus is so much more evocative sometimes.

Isn't it lovely to end the year with these wonderful Bengal developments? Happy making.

 
At 8:17 PM , Blogger gaypet said...

Hey, congrats, Sally, on the new machine! I can't sew to save my life. I so admire the skill! I hope you have fun with it.

 
At 8:27 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

It is just what was needed!

Have fun Sally, and not to break the thread, but I didn't mean to needle you earlier...You just keep bobbin along!

(I slay myself!)

 
At 8:28 PM , Anonymous Lysandwr said...

Photographing Magic!!! There are professionals who go their whole lives without achieving that goal; well done Quiche!!
He is SO beautiful, and so comfortable looking (well, for a cat) in his country (i.e. the room.)

Beez--everything you said. Just everything. :)

Sally--congrats on new machine! Welcome to the newest member of your family.

Tamales (had to carry over from last post):
In SB, during August Fiesta season, every Catholic organization around (including the Mission Santa Barbara, Queen of Father Juniper Sierra's missions along the CA coast) has at least one weekend where you can go buy singles or mass quantities of Tamales. This is in addition to the street vendors.
Tamale season here in Socorro? TOO COLD for street vendors, and they don't seem to have Tamale Sales (they do Enchilada Dinners a lot during the warm months, however, as fund raisers for a new firetruck or some deserving family in a hard situation.)

So....
If I want a tamale, I'm going to have to learn to make it myself. Any recipe recommendations from Fiends gratefully accepted!

 
At 8:29 PM , Anonymous Lysandwr said...

And I've managed to lose my Google/Blogger password. so I'm back to anonymity.

Q--SHAME ON YOU!! :)

 
At 8:32 PM , Blogger Dragonsally said...

You are on a roll (tube?) Q.

 
At 8:39 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Oh Lys is not blue anymore...

My wit is seamless! And I am laughing so hard I have a stich in my side! Ah-HEM, I will stop or the whole fabric of this blog will unravel, and the patterns we have established will be lost, that's my un-biased opinion.....

 
At 8:42 PM , Anonymous Lysandwr said...

Hermmmm....

Perhaps you should rethink the size
of this operation;

elsewise your cutting wit may just trim us all down to measure. :)

 
At 8:47 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Dress it up any way you like, Lys, it's im-material. You have some facing up to do, the truth is not elastic.

My face is pinking up by the sheer effort of this...

 
At 8:49 PM , Blogger Dragonsally said...

I want to know how long you can keep the thread going Q...

 
At 8:56 PM , Blogger gaypet said...

Impressive! ;)

 
At 8:57 PM , Anonymous Lysandwr said...

Hah! What's the matter, couldn't pin this on me so you want to dart off in another direction? It's not that thimble! Er, I mean simple (hey, it was a hard one...) Let's not baste another minute here on this; surely you can buttonhole another Fiend into doing your piecework for you. hehehehe

 
At 8:58 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

HA! You'll have to do better, already used that one.

And I think I am out...

And we seem to have driven every other Fiend into hiding....

 
At 8:58 PM , Blogger gaypet said...

Past time for bed for me. Night. I am so happy about the Love and Magic! I hope your dreams are sweet and free of tricksy animals.

 
At 8:59 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

FODS! Lys, I concede!!!!!

 
At 9:03 PM , Anonymous Lysandwr said...

No, how can you? Stays!
I have not yet accused you of embroidering the truth; we can still patch this relationship.
It is on the mend, I swear.

Okay...sorry....it was the bottle of red wine (LOVE ME some Penfolds....sigh....apologies to the english teachers out and about.)

BTW, if any of you Fiends watched The Tin Man tonight on SciFi channel based on earlier conversations.....please do forget you did so!! It was heavily edited; evidently to fit in the time slot. You really MUST see the whole thing, or not bother watching it at all.

 
At 9:03 PM , Blogger Dragonsally said...

What, doesn't seam to matter anymore?

 
At 9:13 PM , Blogger Ticia said...

::ROFL:: and I don't even sew! You fiends slay me!

 
At 9:18 PM , Blogger ariandalen said...

Before you use the whole nine yards, I'm going to bed.

 
At 9:19 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

I got Tin Man but have not watched it yet...What exactly is it, anyway?

 
At 9:19 PM , Blogger ariandalen said...

For, surely, this garb is not made of whole cloth.

 
At 9:21 PM , Blogger ariandalen said...

"Tin Man" is a continuation/update of "The Wizard of Oz."

 
At 9:29 PM , Anonymous Lysandwr said...

We had that long thread about it awhile ago, when it was first repeating on SCI FI channel (guess I was in Iraq when it came out the first time...)

Anyway, I was totally enchanted and delighted...but had no expectations. SO am hesitant to tell you too much....you will enjoy it more just experiencing it!

But...that said....yes, there is the Oz lineage (and think of the books, not the movies so much.)

Plus steam punk...and great cast....and many tips o' the hat in different pop culture directions. Love the bar. Love the costumes. In places, kinda reminded me of Chris Cowan (er, Colqhoun, these days)'s Borderland parties!

But what they did tonight was criminal. Less than four hours for the whole story. Sigh.

 
At 9:34 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Cool! It sure looked like something
I would like.

I need to sleep. Many more tubes tomorrow...

 
At 9:46 PM , Blogger Adri said...

You Fiends slay me! Pun chain for the ages.

I've noticed I use a lot of exclamation points while talking with you Fiends. This is not usually my way; I'm a big proponent of punctuation moderation.

 
At 9:49 PM , Anonymous Lysandwr said...

Adri--I hear you. But this is an extremely punctuated place!

Q--Nighty night..sleep well...may Magic dreams roam your heart all night long.

 
At 9:50 PM , Blogger na said...

'Night-morning fiends!

\o/ Magic looks kitten-like in play mode in that second pic, and a little scary-pouncing leopard all at once. He is gorgeous.

On a music note from last post - I thought I loved the Pogues. But Flogging Molly I am big time, fangirl-style in love with; they are their own creation and put on a terrific show, biased I may be, but I recommend them to anyone (unless you're bothered by profanity; Certain Words do make their way into the performances).

Sally, I adore the wee free men, too - my favorite Pratchett books to date are the witchy ones (Granny Weatherwax is my heroine). I read the first two Tiffany Aching books to my monsters. Now they run around calling each other "wee scunner" and saying "crivens".

 
At 9:52 PM , Blogger na said...

OMF the sewing puns are excellent.

 
At 10:25 PM , Anonymous Lysandwr said...

Granny Weatherwax ROCKS!

 
At 11:08 PM , Blogger spacedlaw said...

Beautiful, he is. Glad that he remembered the inner kitten and came out to play.

Crivens! I love the wee free men. And Granny (although Nanny Ogg is brilliant too).

 
At 11:19 PM , Blogger Stacy said...

do you like the cat tree? I see it there and am wonderfing; is it all that?? I can't wait to get ours.

 
At 12:05 AM , Blogger Dragonsally said...

Renata YES Granny Weathermax is so cool.

 
At 12:09 AM , Blogger Dragonsally said...

put your drinks down NOW

hehehehehehehehe

 
At 4:22 AM , Blogger Phiala said...

Some days, Fiendly comments should not be read before coffee. Y'all are insane! :)

What a gorgeous cat, and so there now.

 
At 4:22 AM , Blogger Phiala said...

And also, pre-caffeine there may be forgetting the little ticky box.

 
At 5:45 AM , Blogger Marjorie said...

I love the first of those photos - he looks so slinky and leopard-y.

I'm in stiches over all the sewing puns, too...

 
At 6:10 AM , Blogger dabbler said...

The very first picture of Magic, way back before he came to you, Lorraine, was what started me reading the blog regularly...it was all you that got me hooked, though.

If I get to pick omens for 2009, the way he looks now gives me hope for healing for all the abused and abandoned beings of our crazy world.

Bravo! I'm reminding that huge changes can come from consistent, small actions.
and courage.

 
At 6:14 AM , Blogger dabbler said...

Serging on, less seriously, I envy anyone who has more Pratchett in prospect. I,greedily, have read them all. I've even infected most of my family, though with some it didn't take.

Took me half of the newest, nonDiscworld one, to stop longing for dworld and discover I like it.

 
At 6:16 AM , Blogger dabbler said...

Pooh. I have had caffeine and still forgot the box!

 
At 6:49 AM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

He is VERY Leopardy. much more so than the others.

Stacy, that isn't the new cat tree, but one I got fpr Magic before he moved in, the new one comes soon, and will go in Learn and the Little Queen's room.

Lear plays REALLY hard. I need a stronger toy for him, I got into the bed, and played, and he was UP on the bed and all over chasing and when he GOT the stick, it was tug of war!

Kind of like Mim and food.

More comments and tea.

 
At 6:51 AM , Blogger Jess said...

Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful, Quiche! I like seeing the Magic Leopard pull the curious play face. I am very happy for you indeed.

Oh, Fod, the punnage! Argh. :D

I've just sat here for five minutes trying to think of a good sewing pun. I can't. I blame the Monster Killer Death Flu Thing that appears to have come in the night to make me woozy and feverish. Sew I'm weft with no cutting remarks to offer, erm, to the thread.

That was rubbish, wasn't it?

 
At 6:54 AM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Really, Dabbler? Wow...I should dig up that first picture, his eyes look SO different.

And yes, small things can make for big changes, and it is a good thing to remember. An omen indeed.

I s need to read Terry, sigh, why it doesn't seem to work for me I do not know. I keep trying!

 
At 7:20 AM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Fods! I started that, and now I've only myself to blame....

So sorry you are sick Jess! People are dropping like flies...I have no time for it, myself, have to schedule it in...FEEL BETTER!

Looking bleak for my hair today. I don't mind driving in snow, but I live an hour and a half from the beauty parlor in good weather...

 
At 7:39 AM , Blogger gaypet said...

I need about 18 more cups of coffee before I can be clever but I wanted to say good morning. So, um, good morning.

The radar LOOKS like the snow should have passed me by now but my window says otherwise. Hard choice to decide to go out for hair or not. Suffering for beauty is one thing. Dieing for it is something else.

Good luck!

 
At 7:53 AM , Blogger gaypet said...

I love the way M is sounding out words right now. Example:

"F-R-EE. I was free but now I'm four!"

"I want a S-A-M-ICH!"

We have those fridge magnets that have little words on them. We have the coffee and psychiatry versions. He picks them out and wants to sound them out. Just now he wanted "Viennese" and "Overbearing" explained. Too early. :)

 
At 8:06 AM , Blogger dabbler said...

Jess, that's high quality rubbish, that is. Feel better soon!

 
At 9:18 AM , Blogger spacedlaw said...

I have one of those magnet boxes with shakespeare words in it...

 
At 10:59 AM , Blogger Lexocat said...

Hello, Fiends. We're having a lazy morning of tea (me) and television (Boy) before diving in to box up all the outgrown clothes, toys and books in his room. Good Fod, between his birthday (a couple months ago) and Christmas, this child ended up with so MUCH stuff!

Really, the whole household could use a similar purge. Ugh. One thing at a time, right?

At any rate, add me to the list of folk who think Magic is utterly gorgeous in the photos. If they don't capture all of his beauty then he must be heart-stopping in person!

Oh, and on the theme of magnetic words, the local Humane Society sent us the puppy words collection a couple years ago as a thank you for donating to them. One of the best gifts ever!

 
At 11:05 AM , Blogger Kitty Cat said...

i do not think you need worry about Lear the Huge.
he is a custard-filled pastry boy. and he loves you, won't hurt you while you sleep.
that boy is so beautiful.
can't wait to see them all again.
and snow.
here in LA it is sunny and 70* ---again.
boooooooooring.
xxooxox happy new year kids. love, me n' Batty n' Kylie and Drew.

 
At 11:42 AM , Blogger EmilyLady said...

I start to drift off when I hear someone say,"Follow your dreams", but it is really a great bit of advice. Following your dream, heart, and self will actually take you to where you want to be; and if you know just what to hold on to while you're getting there, you probably won't have to do that much work.

Really.

Congratulations on what you've acheived, Quiche.

 
At 11:43 AM , Blogger EmilyLady said...

Of course, I really meant to congratulate you on what you've ACHIEVED ...

... not on what you've ACHEIVED.

 
At 11:55 AM , Blogger Dan Guy said...

Better than on what you've archived!

 
At 11:56 AM , Blogger Phiala said...

Emily, NONE of us have achieved perfect typing. *grin* And if we did, it would be so much less interesting around here...

I'm actually MAKING PROGRESS on a project I've been putting off for ages, and may even get it done today. It would be very exciting to get it done before the end of the year.

 
At 12:29 PM , Blogger EmilyLady said...

Prfict typin is is ove ratred

Ah, loosening up.

 
At 1:28 PM , Blogger Adri said...

I just got back from the gym where I indulged in watching Animal Planet-- it was Growing up... Clouded Leopard.


EEEEEEEE-- SO CUTE. Best show on AP b/c the stories are always happy + baby animals, but added bonus of a small leopard episode (tho not as small as ALCs or Le Leopard Magic).

Definitely made me think of Magic, though. :D

Also, I went to the /gym/.

 
At 1:56 PM , Blogger vampi said...

76 comments? wow. stupid cable went out last night so i saw the post, then couldn't comment. i'll have to catch up.

merry new year's eve eve to all fiends, lurking and chatty :)

lovely pictures, i love how magic slinks about. if slink isn't a word, it should be. i have the pink panther theme song in my head after looking at those pictures, he looks like he could get into some mischief.

 
At 3:13 PM , Anonymous kali_licious said...

What a great post to come back to! Magic is a lucky boy to have landed in such a patient and loving home.

Lots and lots of catching up to do.:) I gotta say though, that the patchwork of puns was very punny. (I know I know..bad, but couldn't resist;)

Q, I have the same problem with Pratchett..I want to like it, but it just doesn't quite get there for me.

And speaking of magnets..I still have to post my fridge. I have the picture, but I gotta get more fluent with flickr first.

Also, all the previous posts' tamale talk is making me hungry..

 
At 3:24 PM , Blogger Phiala said...

There.

*pats self on back*

Just submitted a manuscript to the editor.

Three years of research and a year of analysis and writing, all in 17 pages.

(No, that's not all I've done for the past 4 years, but it IS a substantial task to accomplish.)

But can I just say I loathe writing in academicese? The passive voice and I do not get along.

 
At 3:29 PM , Blogger dabbler said...

Well done, Phiala!

 
At 3:30 PM , Blogger Phiala said...

Thank you. :)

I believe I will take the evening off.

Or maybe work on some fiction to get the taste of "was shown by" out of my brain.

 
At 3:32 PM , Blogger dabbler said...

My usual advice to those who haven't enjoyed Pratchett is, first of all, don't worry about it. Lots of other great authors out there.

But if you really want to try again, avoid Rincewind, and try either one of the 'juveniles' or, my favorite, Small Gods.

 
At 4:35 PM , Blogger Dragonsally said...

Dabbler, "hope for healing for all the abused and abandoned beings of our crazy world" you have just created the best new year's resolution ever.

 
At 4:44 PM , Blogger Dragonsally said...

seriously, make sure you have nothing in your mouth when you clickey clickey

 
At 5:18 PM , Blogger Siri said...

Oh Sally - what would I do without you! Love the squirrel - my favorite rodent. And the sale - well, I was wondering what was 40% off.....

Winter is back here - 25 mile per hour winds expected all night - a nip in the air again.

Q - did you get your hair done or no? Inquiring minds....

 
At 5:44 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Home. Was commenting, but I have a better idea....

 
At 5:45 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Mwwwmmmaaahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!

 
At 5:50 PM , Anonymous Marla said...

So happy to read this (as a passionate cat-loving lurker). Bless that little beastie and you too, kind lady.

 
At 5:50 PM , Blogger Phiala said...

Hm. I'm tempted to be scared...

Hi Marla!

 
At 5:54 PM , Blogger Dragonsally said...

What are you up to, head Fiend?

 
At 6:22 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Welcome Marla! Glad you are here!

No worries....Just commenting....

 
At 6:23 PM , Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

There. Done commenting on all of your chatter today. I hope I got all of it.

Anyway, new post is up, who is going to be first?????

 
At 6:31 PM , Blogger Beez said...

*snort* I did it just out of a sneaking suspicion.

 
At 1:08 AM , Blogger spacedlaw said...

Well done, Phiala!

 

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